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It has been a rough couple of weeks. I think I have dried up creatively during this time and honestly wondered if I had completely lost it altogether. Whenever I ask myself why I cannot snap out of the funk I realize that my spirit is broken, utterly crushed, and it has been for some time. You can slap on a mask and pretend you are fine but the truth always comes out. Is it possible to be damaged beyond repair? Sometimes I really think I am...
In Perfect Harmony
In June of 2007 I posted my first chapter of Dark December. Since that time, the story has evolved and changed in part through a collaboration that developed and lasted over 4 years. During this time a friendship was forged. Thank you Beth, for unwavering friendship, support, and generosity over these last 4+ years. It has been a journey I will never forget.
"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain."
Aw Gayl. I tend to believe that it's impossible for us to be damaged beyond repair except in some cases, usually ones starting with damage in our youth. Because we're always growing and changing, some slower than others but it still happens.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we just have to give ourselves permission. For what depends on the person and the problem.
I think that is where I struggle the most...giving myself permission. There is always someone who has it worse than me, I'm sure. I'm just tired of the stress and fear...
ReplyDeleteBeth does that too. I think a lot of good people do when they're having issues. And a lot of extra stress is put on you when you fight yourself in this way.
ReplyDeleteYes, that's true, she does. I tend to try and bury my issues, keep them to myself. Most of the time I do not like doing the "poor me" thing. Except when I dump on Beth, poor girl.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have an outlet. Hopefully she also dumps her problems on you too because nothing feels better than letting it all out to a friend you can trust who will understand and won't judge. I am a big believer in letting loose.
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ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a hard time. I've noticed that you haven't been around lately and I've been worried. I hope things get better for you soon, and I know that you're a strong person; just give yourself time, give yourself permissions, and if anyone can pull through a funk, it's you.
Sending thoughts your way, and if you ever want to vent, my inbox is always open.
Thanks Van...that means a lot to me. It is hard always having to be strong and not being able to lean on someone once in awhile.
ReplyDeleteYou know I care, about you both, and think of you all the time. Funks suck. But do know, and take some solace, that there are people that care~
ReplyDelete~Drew, thank you...I do know you care and that means so much.
ReplyDeleteSometimes you just have to put down the armor and allow yourself time to breath. Like I told Beth, if you ever feel like you just want to be heard without an opinion I'm here. xoxoQui@gmail.com
ReplyDelete*Hugs* I hope there is a break in the clouds soon.
Thank you Qui...I know everyone has their demons and challenges. I shouldn't complain. But it is nice to know there are people out there who care. I am very lucky.
ReplyDeleteGot to this late, but we all love you and we'l support you whatever and listen when you need ears. You are a fabulous lady, very talented and wonderfully encouraging. *Hugs*
ReplyDeleteRad thank you so much for that. It means a lot knowing there are people out there who care.
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